UPDATE

SO HERE IS AN UPDATE ON MY LIFE…

I had been having pains in my right side for about two weeks and had been REALLY tired so I decided to go to the doctor to get everything check out. After 7 tubes of blood they said that the reason I was so tired was because of my hectic schedule, my poor eating habits (I don’t eat a lot), and I am depressed. They wanted to put me on an anti depressant but my asthma and allergist didn’t want me on it because of the amount of medicine I take for my asthma and allergies. And my family doctor wanted to give me another pill. So I researched depression and I found out that you can help your depression symptoms buy taking Fish Oil supplements and B12 supplements and by taking a daily multi-vitamin. So I have been doing that for about a week now and I think it is helping a little bit. Now as far as the stomach pains go…my family doctor first ordered me a hedia scan….they inject dye into you so that they can see your liver, gall balder and bile ducts….IT TOOK 2 HOURS! Blah!.....so I go back the next Monday to get my results from them….they didn’t find anything…my doctor said* are you still having pains?* I wanted to say *oh no! they just disappeared!* But I didn’t! (I mean what was she thinking!!??!) so she felt and listened to my stomach and said she felt and heard something. So she ordered a ultra sound of my gall balder, a cat scan of my gall balder and a chest x-ray. I went to get all those done yesterday…or so I thought.

I had to drink 900mL of *gunk* to *clean out my system* on Thursday morning…or so I thought….my doctor told me WRONG she said to drink them BOTH Thursday morning so I did. I got to the testing site and I couldn’t get the second bottle of the *gunk* down and they asked how many I had and they told her…the lady at the front desk told me she said they told me WRONG (I was supposed to drink one the night before and one that morning) so she said we will try the test anyways…I had the chest xray and I was fine and all….then I went to get the cat scan and they asked me what I was allergic to and I told them and they could not give me the dye because I am a high risk person ….the dye would have helped them see *everything* better. Then I get up and they said they couldn’t do the ultra sound so I would have to come back in the morning….

So I come back this morning to just get the ultra sound done…so I thought….the ultra sound hurt L but it was fine….she then made me go sit in a room….another lady came in and told me they didn’t get a clear enough picture of my stomach yesterday and that I would have to drink 900mL of the *gunk* AGAIN! I was mad and of course started crying! So I go to Little Creek Park to be alone and drink all my gunk that I didn’t think I could get down…but I did….It was early in the morning and I was by myself in the car praying, crying, screaming, yelling, drinking, and listening to KLove….I got through it all and went back to the testing site…I got the entire stomach scanned this time….Yesterday they saw inflammation in the appendix and thats why I had to do the second cat scan today…So it is more than likely my appendix AND my gall bladder. I will get the results back Monday and they will no 100% of what is wrong with me. Yeeeeeeek!

I was training to run in the race for the cure…I cant run now….I have to walk….all because of my STUPID appendix and gall bladder!

There is the update….sorry it is so long…..

Peace love prayers and happiness

Miss Meagan

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quit a bit has changed since last blog....

we had Christmas...it was okay...i am glad Jesus came and all that...but things were not like they used to be...i was sick...my family did not come in for Christmas...my brother was un-happy with everything he got...and his girlfriend came over on Christmas...now don't get me wrong i really really like her she is a great girl and has helped my brother become more of a man in some small areas...however they are in high school and they are dating...chrismtas is supposed to be for families...my dad said no friends over at first and then my brother just kept asking and asking so my dad gave in...he always does with him!! they let him get by with EVERYTHING and it was DEF not that way for me growing up :( to top things off my dog died the day after Christmas and that was really bad... i miss that dog... all my friends are gone until school starts back or they have a BF or GF that they are with all the time...I feel so alone in the world...i have Jesus and I have my parents...but thats not enough...i really don't think i can take another chrismtas and new years without someone to love me...i have thought alot about moving out of state after I graduate...but i just cant i have soooooo many medical bills and i am so sick all the time...i def can't afford my meds by myself let-a-loan my co-pays!...:(

I babysat (a dog and cat) from the 24-28th and they both kept me on my toes! I actually miss them...lol...especialy now since my dog died... the couple that I dog sat for are amazing....She is 22 and he is like 25 or 26 and they seem like they are soooo much fun he likes theater and signing and she just seems like an all around cool person...i hope we all get to know each other better and maybe we can hang out...i miss friends....i miss being normal and doing normal things...i just need a friend....who is always there....ugh

so if you cant tell i am depreseed very much soo... the thoughts that have been runing through my head lately are not right...not at all....i just need something to make me happy ugh i hate feeling this way...it is soooo easy to hide being unhappy....all most to easy....

NYR...loose weight....gain confidence....work out more....read the bible daily....get better grades....not care as much about stupid stuff...go see my friends in NC...travel more...looose weight!!...gain confidence!!

don't worry about me to much...i will be fine...just need time and confidence....love to alll <3

12/24/08 perseptive

wow what can I say about today

it is crazzzzzy. I went to get the second part of my allergy test done today and I am pretty much allergic to everything.they had to do the test in two different parts because I was so bad on the first part, they had to wait like 100 hourse before the second part could be done. today they had to give me 5 counter reaction shots 4 epi's 3 breathing treatments 3 steroids 2 doses of anti histamine 2 shots of benedril and i passed out. my heart was racing so bad that I had to lie down and they raised my feet up in the air. it was intense.....it puts things in perseptive....I could have died today...wow! thank you jesus. so i am on steriods again and I have to carry around two epi pens everywhere I go. well I am getting off...maybe go to sleep

love to all

merry CHRISTmas

sick n stuff

i am sick. i have this STUPID head cold and have had it since Sunday night. Then on Monday i decided i wanted a fever of 101 and got it! suckage! so Tuesday i was pretty sick with a fever and all however i was bound and determined to go to school and work, but when i went outside to start my car it would not start...so i did not go to school, dance, or work! Then yesterday i went to school but did not go to dance....so i am probably pretty far behind...but i am sure i will get caught up...i hope.....so i got rid of my fever but as of like 3o mins ago it went up to 101!!!! errrrrrrrrg. i am also trying to get saras pics she took posted but it like wont let me because of the size and such.....errrrg again! so i love superchick and miley cyrus i could listen to them alllllll day!!! i just got a lil bit of christmas shopping done...my sunday school kids and my bro. i still have to finish! i have to buy for.....marci, sara, mom, dad, my cousin amber, lee, ashley v,my secert pal, becca, jordan, and finish the epperlys, and jordan I need like $200!!! wow ikr! ekkk!! I am probably going to use the money my gpa gives me to buy my christmas gifts!!!!

i am feeling worse as the night goes on and i have a VERRY busy weekend!! tomorrow i have school, comets, a concert, and babysitting then saturday i have a christmas parade and the snow queen which is a christmas ballet that my neighbor has the lead role in! she is sooooooooo amazing! it scares me! =) well i am going to go

i love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

muah!!! =)

Day 2...12/01/200

wow! it's december! i cannot believe it! only 24 days until Christmas! I have a little bit more shopping to finish and some packages to send down south ;)
so i just got home from dance and had a sec to update.
last week was thanksgiving... dont get me wrong or anything but it was nuts. the food n all was good, but my uncle showed up drunk and was making fun of everyone and saying that the food was bad. well one thing led to another and he ended up calling my anut fat and told her to go on a diet...my whole family could use a lil less food...however that was not is place expecicaly at a family gathering.
i said that to say this...every year i go to my cousin/aunts house to decorate and when we got to her house she started crying and cursing my uncle...it was nuts...she was saying how she wishes we just wouldnt have had dinner there and all this stuff....i know what my uncle did was awful but she should grow up and just be thankful for what she has...she cired like all day it drove me nuts...i hope that one day my family can all get along and be close like other families are. i am closest to my nanna and cousin so if i could spend time with them i am good. i pray to god things improve for everyone
so i ate better today! woohoo and i had 4 hours of dance so i think i am covered lol (hopefully!!) i hope i can loose 26 more pounds by my first dance comp. in march. i am so excited for it!! Thriller and Elevator!!!!!! =) =) =)
well i have developed a cold since last night and i think i am going to head off to bed.
pray for my family, a better tomorrow, and for myself to have more confidence so i can achieve more things (confidence is really the only thing holding me back :/)

1st day... 11/30/2008

so today is my first day blogging! my friend, scott, insipred me to start my own blog. so here it goes.....

this thanksgiving week was amazing! i really needed a break from work, school, dance, and just life in general. i did homework all week and ran errands. i planned to go to the gym everyday, but that did not work out :( i only ended up going two days. i also ate reallllly bad this whole week which is depressing!!! i have 26 more pounds to loose and i am not going to do it by eating and not working out. errrg! so on friday i got an amazing surprise!! my bff4l came in town to surprise me/ help our friend move. i was so happy because i needed a pick me up. life has been throwing me all these curve balls lately and it is getting harder and harder to deal with it. my parents are just completly driving me nuts about 97% of the time, and i wish so bad i could ,move out but i cannot. i have some interesting health issues and if i move out i will not have insurance and could not buy my 6 different meds i take everyday! so anyways i think i am done here. blogs will get more interesting when i really feel i can open up and share.

thanks for reading, sorry if it was boring!

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